Crap

I’ve wasted 3 days. And most of my resolve stands crumbled. As to what the resolve was (or maybe, still is), is out-of-context. So tonight, i’ll write. With no intent. I just want to spend time. While it away. And then weep.

I’m an atheist.

And the best part about it is that every time i write atheist, i need to look up a dictionary to confirm that the ‘i before e except c‘ rule stands shattered. I guess that defines atheism – make an exception, and let it be rooted in sense. Phonetics, in this case, decries such an exception.

Primarily, i think it’s high time that theories of genesis, that define the creation of man, must be abandoned. (I’m not even gonna attempt justify this, and if someone disagrees with me on this front, trust me, the rest of my post is, for you, pure gibberish.)

So, man evolved. From some primitive being, which came from an even earlier one, and so on. Suggested (and kinda verified) theories propose that the turning point in evolution of known life came when amino acids and such molecules began (learnt?) to replicate. Maybe that is what god induced. Maybe not.

But the bottom point is – most religious texts rely on enforcing onto a reader the belief that god created man, and hence man is obligated to follow god’s policies, which the text will eventually go onto elaborate. (Sometimes i wonder why it is that these texts only pertain to man. Are the women free to do whatever they wish? In which case, someone please suggest me a doc who’ll morph my gender. Or suggest me a government clerk who’ll change ‘M’ to ‘F’ on my birth certificate, for cheap.)

And now, i change the topic abruptly.

I distinctly believe that all religions are good. And that belief in god is not incorrect.

In much the same way that most people on campus believe that me and a girl are going out.

It’s all quite a lie (come on, no lady’d be so foolish), and yet, it gives people something to talk about. Some thing to cling onto. Something to believe. In most ways, religions are a source of strength for people. They provide something definitive that an individual can follow.

Actually, it’s quite tough to be an atheist. For instance, when i’m in trouble, there really isn’t any god i can call upon, and no real prayer that i can mutter that’ll help take my attention off the depressing matter at hand. Nor is there any decree whatsoever that tells me that i should work towards the uplifting of mankind. Frankly, atheism is a hollow, and i’d really not suggest it to just anyone.

Bear in mind that i’m not quite making any definitive statements here. It’s simple, really. I have beliefs, and others have them too. It’s but-natural that i find my beliefs more correct, but i also realise that whilst i am free to make my own choices, i probably can’t do so for others. Atleast, not yet. Yes, i do look forward to a time whence i can enforce some of my beliefs onto others, but that, i’m afraid, is not an issue i can let my blogging digress onto.

Yet, this is my blog. And i think i bear the right to say this.

The existence of god is not true, not in the least.

However (i’d like to add), an individual’s belief in such an entity, is not quite incorrect, as long as it inspires him/her (notice how i’m not chauvinistic, unlike most religious leaders) to live. And live purposefully. What exactly i mean by purposefully is an entirely different discussion, and is one that i don’t think i can do justice to through written words. Actually, i’m quite eager to find someone who i can argue with on what socially acceptable means; because, both the terms, ’society’ and ‘acceptable’ are quite unclear in definition, if not downright undefinable.

Lastly, notice how the word society is yet another brilliant exception to the rule of ‘i before e except c‘. I like to believe that this is because it is an incorrect term, and not only because phonetics requires so. Hence it has to be spelt incorrectly.

My my, am i speaking crap!